When I was in high school, I was not the quarterback. I was not the cool kid. I was not a nerd. I was one of the invisible. I had a father who was mentally abusive and left me with no self esteem. I remember sitting in one of my classes a couple of months into the semester and the teacher was looking for a student to ask a tough question. As he glanced around the room his eyes locked on mine. He stood there a second and stared. He then sidestepped to his desk to check his seating chart to find out my name. For two months I had remained out of sight. That was the way I liked it. Stay out of view and no one will tease you.
Gym class was also an unpleasant experience. When you are overweight, you are always the last one picked and when you are, its done with a grumble. One day, however, I had a real break through. It had nothing to do with a coach or a counselor. It only had to do with my making a choice.
Playing softball in gym class, I came to bat. As I walked up to the home plate, I heard the pitcher yell, ”Pull it in.” I stood there embarrassed as all of the outfield ran halfway back to the bases because they didn't believe I could hit it that far.
I looked out over the field and saw the one guy in the class who was heavier than me. He was center field. I then decided my best bet was to hit it towards him because speed was not on his side. I adjusted my body so my hit would head in his direction. I then focused all my attention on the ball. The pitcher fired in his underhand pitch. My eyes followed the ball and I swung as hard as I could. CRACK! I felt a solid contact with my bat and I watched as that ball left at what seemed like light speed! It flew high above the pitcher. It flew high above second base. It flew high above the guy in center field. It kept flying. It passed the ball field fence and landed over near the school building. I ran the bases. I didn't need to run fast, but I did. I didn't want anything to mess this up. I rounded all the bases and jumped on home base. Did I mention the bases were loaded when I stepped up to bat?
That day I made a choice. That choice was about my present moment. Rather than worry about what might have been, I focused on making the moment I was in successful. I thought it through and took the actions that were aligned with the outcome I was creating. It didn't change my life overnight. It did give me some belief that I could.
Stay in this moment. Live it well. What comes tomorrow is of your own choosing.